im staring at the computer for a few minutes now and i
still don't know what to write. maybe there are no feelings
to be expressed today but i can't sleep yet because i'm
still too full...

anyway, my day was kind of hectic. After the mass, there
was this meeting that was at first, chaotic but good thing
Ate Rose spoke up so it was finally focused. i really pray
people would be more understanding and more open-minded. Am
glad that Auntie Mayette was chosen to head the temporal
needs. She's more open-minded and understanding.

i also got my present from beng, my friend who is so much
like a sister to me! she's one of my best friends who have
stayed with me thru thick and thin... whether am going
berserk over something or just need to unload... she's
there. i really miss her because she went back to iloilo...
going back to the present, i really appreciated her giving
me a present even if she's miles away... and that she
remembered even if my birthday is like three to four weeks
away pa.

sometimes i get uncertain over things... and i end up
getting frustrated. it's hard to leave it all up to God.
but i know i should lift up everything to Him... and i will
and am doing... there are some times where i just seem so
uncertain of everything...

i reflected on the gospel for today which centers on loving
neighbors or difficult people. i find myself in a situation
where the people around me is really difficult to love, but
i just remember to always put myself in their position.
It's really tough, it's really hard... but if God wants us
to forgive seventy times seven, then i'll do it.

my best friend once laughed over my friendship with an "ex-
friend"... and history does repeat itself. but this time,
i'm not as devastated. i am disappointed but at least i
know the problem isn't with me. i am different now and i
was being true to myself. If people don't like me for who
i am now, am sorry but i wouldn't change for them. Only God
can change me if He wills me to be.