i love weddings especially if i'm the one organizing it yet
it's been a long time since i really, really enjoyed one.
that was until saturday, april 24 at dagupan. it was really
a looong drive, and we got off a bad start - there were so
many problems that occured - like people being late, not
respecting time that even ate rose was hassled because of
this - and the worst thing is, my best friend decided to
shut up to make a statement about this but I don't think
people actually understood or even noticed it (this should
be in another entry but anyway)... but good thing we
arrived and we were able to rest a bit before the wedding
started. i personally know ahia chris. and i love this guy.
we hang out a lot when he was still national steward for
fccy. he was marrying aireen, a lovely girl from dagupan.
it was actually a very simple and very traditional
wedding... but maybe it was different for me at this time
because it made me believe true love can really exist even
for just a few hours. ;)

i'm a cynic when it comes to love, and jeff and i talked
about it going home. i believe in the idea that true love
can happen but i'm not a fan of commitment. this is not to
say that i don't believe in marriage, i do... but it needs
so much responsibility and accountability to be able to do
so and at this point, i really think i can't make that
commitment yet. add to that my feminism ideals (and this is
another entry) and my conviction will all the more be
stronger.

last sunday, i received a letter from joan, a fccyer. what
she wrote was so touching. i can't believe that i'm able to
inspire. and it deepened the fact that Jesus really works
in me because i'm able to bring people closer to God.
that's why even if i'm on the brink of giving up on people,
i know God has plans for all of us and all he asks of me is
to patient for even just one bit. ;)