i was able to celebrate mass kanina. and i felt so great. the spirit led me there... i wasn't planning to go to mass but i had a feeling i should... and since i'm trying to celebrate mass as often as i could, i went to mt. carmel church after i went to maryhill to get their course information on pastoral education which i'm eyeing on november. the reading was about a leper who was healed by Jesus. but i was struck because the priest mentioned in his homily about loving difficult people. it was a beautiful story about a parish in france. he mentioned that in facing difficult people, we learn the value of patience. we learn to see our blessings in the midst of the difficulty. and it was just so amazing because i've been reaffirmed about my craziness to love people even if they have hurt me in the past...
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jeff and i talked on the phone for two days straight... just talking... about stuff, about life, and in some parts, discussed some things na wala nang katuturan. and it felt good to laugh about some things that happened in our past. one thing i was struck with was that i felt i've grown in this friendship of ours... before i used to be so sensitive, but our friendship has taught me to be level-headed which i am now... and which i had to admit, takes a little getting used to. but i'm really happy. because i know we've both grown...
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i'm so glad erika and i talked last wednesday and cleared some real issues. i'm glad i didn't hurt her by saying i really wanted to drop bbec already. i know there's still a lot to happen but i really feel that i need to simplify my life and with all the developments in my life, i really don't see bbec there any more. but i told her i'd still be there. i'd still help out if she needs it... and i'll keep an open mind pa rin about the partnership.
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lord, thank you for such a great day! i hope i always see your presence in my life even with the storms brewing all over the place. i lift up everything to you and i give thanks for the instruments you give me to let me know you love me. amen.