Vangie and I bonded over a movie, dinner and a phone call this evening. Tonight made me realize a lot of things. I used to be very afraid of talking about my true feelings, exposing myself and being vulnerable. But after tonight, I realized I can be "naked"... because I've accepted myself for who I am and God allowed me to realize this thought. I became true to myself and am loving myself for who I am more. Vanged talked to a very "raw" arlene... parang exposed to the bone. I talked to her about my fears, my being sensitive, my insecurities and all the while appreciating the beauty of all these negative things. It's actually a long time since I bared my soul... sometimes, people seem to judge you or think the better of you so you would rather shut up and say nothing at all. Sometimes, you also think of a better way to say it but end up saying nothing when you should be voicing out and speaking in honest terms. I wasn't even afraid to tell her about needing a man in my life... I used to be very close-minded to the idea of needing a man in my life. I believed that even if one day, I should have a boyfriend, I would never let him love me and affect me in a way I can't control... but I realized you can't do that. I still believe in living a single-blessed life. Let's just say I'm also opening up the option of the other side of the road as well. (and everything that comes along with it... yes, even raising up kids.)