Yesterday was the Gospel about Mary and Martha. One was doing all the leg work, one was working to save her soul.
This story has been read so many times, at so many occasions. But yesterday, ironically, I was thinking about this Gospel and how I am actually living this situation in my life right now.
The thing about our faith is that we see things in the Bible that really coincides with our lives. And I know God spoke to me through this passage.
I've been working for the Souvenir Program of our Parish. I was also doing so much work the past few weeks for my work (overtime included). I also am prioritizing my family, which was not on my list before the Mindoro event happened. And with all these things going around me, I felt I was so "Martha" that I forgot to be "Mary".
And then, emptiness creeps in. I remember the story about being busy and I can't help but think... am I B-eing U-nder S-atan's Y-oke already without me knowing it?
And also, there are some feelings of being taken for granted. Sometimes I feel so sad no one even asks how I am anymore. It's all about them and how they are. But then, is this a fair question to ask because do I ask others how they are? Ironies of life. The Lord said, "Do unto others what you want them to do unto you." And yet, even when you do, there are some people who still don't ask you how you are. And i know I've got to accept that. Not many people remember. But like any other person, I am also vulnerable. I also hurt. I cry. And I am human to feel all these things.
Maybe it's Spiritual warfare. Another irony. When you believe in Him, more warfare will come into your lives. Call us Christians crazy, but we did know we were going to experience this when we accepted Him as our Savior. Just thinking, this definitely adds up irony in my cart.
Maybe it's a feeling of being burdened with all that is happening to me. I remember in the "purpose-driven life" that sometimes you can't feel God's presence because there has to be a time where you thirst for him. And I also remember: Cast your burdens upon Me, all you who are heavily laden, Come to Me all of you who are tired of carrying heavy loads. For the yoke I will give you is easy and My burden is light, Come to Me and I will give you rest. Lord, please deliver me from this and make me inspired again to serve you in Your way.
