i'm doing a separate entry for guy since i haven't received his photo yet. all i can say muna is: thanks vangie! it was a different kind of high!

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how can someone you love suddenly become someone you don't know anymore? one day you wake up and you're greeted by a totally different person. how many times in life do we need to face this reality? then i realize... i change, too... we shouldn't expect things to stay the same forever. the tide sometimes is high or is low... and it changes because it has to... in the same way, with all that's happening in my life... i have to accept this fact in life because i want me to change... i want me to learn... i want me to mold into something beautiful in God's eyes... and i have the see the bigger picture even though it still hurts me a bit now...

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i watched a pink film entitled "eating out" at sm manila with vange. the movie was rated "x" by mtrcb but because this was the 1st ever Pink Festival (itaas ang bandera ng mga bading!) they allowed three takes of this film... taray talaga! the festival even extended til july 12... and that's due to insistent public demand! tinalo si spidey! ;) hehehe so anyway, vange was kinda shocked, i guess... first time nya kc to watch a pink film... she was so curious kc to watch one... made me remember the first time i watched a pink film... it was with jeff and we were in this mini theatre at ayala... we were both pretty shocked when we got out of the cinema... as in no speaking... i remember then, dumidikit si jeff sa akin nun kc baka bigla may humugot sa kanya dun... killer pa man din ng bading yun. kc naman, we had no idea there would be a pink film din there... mini short films kasi sya pero daming pink short film. anyway, it was a pretty light film... funny and kinda makes you think about a gay's lifestyle... i have friends who are bading, some with oompah and some trying to have that oompah... and some who doesn't really care about these things... and they're really great people. thre's a lot of things i learned from them. i accept them for who they are... and even if im in Pro-life, i know i still would accept them... because Pro-life's stand is against homosexual acts and marriages and stuff... but we are called to love them pa rin... and to pray for them...

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i'm yet again to face the reality that a very great friend is about to migrate to australia already. ge's my buddy since la salle days... i remember we hit it off agad... and that when i spilled orange juice on my shirt... she offered me her pink jacket... when i'm sad, she'll go with me to the chapel... when im weak, she'll be strong... when i'm really down, she'll pull me up with her funny stories and kindness... sweet no? and she's all that... does pretty sweet stuff to her friends. she's really an eccentric kind of friend... but we love her pretty much because her "eccentricity" makes us love her even more... we gave her a mini surprise despidida and grabe, naiiyak na ako thinking she'll be miles away and it would be a very long time before we see each other again... we'll meet again before she leaves but i don't think i can control my feelings by then...

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made me think of friendships tuloy... and the one's im keeping company with... i sometimes feel a bit frustrated with the people around me... but i have to remember, we're all a work in progress... i just can't help feeling that i have great friends before... and now, am not so sure...

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my sis and i are started to bond again and we watched spiderman 2 together at the podium. spiderman was really funny, ang daming scenes na nakakatawa... i learned so many things... about sacrifices, about life and love.