i love my being Pro-life. no matter how the system is so bugging me, or that my boss is unfair, and that i have a jinx i think in the name that starts with "j"s, i love what i do and what i believe in.


this past week has taught me something. while i'll be challenged, fought upon and discouraged by the internal side of things, i'd be great on our publics. just this week, i had the chance to talk to four groups of students. i'd get comments that are really encouraging and that made me value what i do best... to talk about pro-life stuff and go down to their level to be understood. i guess i miss this in work and now that i do it again, i am very much motivated. i have already stopped two abortions... while it may not seem much, to me that is already a breakthrough. i pray the Lord will always help me go on... and not to fall so deeply again.


fr. manny texted me this week about forgiving him and the people who have hurt me and to come back because my parish needs me. i received a text from erika, too about what i don't like in a group because they are clueless as to what bothered me and what pushed me not to go to st. peter anymore. some days i'll have a list, some days i just feel this is where God wants me to be. i like my new self... and though i think sometimes it's a bit selfish, i know i am not totally leaving my promise of service to God... because my work is for Him, my family that i'm working on to build up after its lost years (in my case, that is) is for Him as well... and the baby jc that we're all so loving right now is our chance to bond... i don't know... it's complicated. but i feel that i need this time off to get to know myself again. i kinda forgot who i am...


in the meantime, it's going to be the feast again! boy, am i looking forward to that this sunday!!!