...just missed the series and i'm actually wondering... when kaya will this ever happen to me? ;)

when he was young...



...and when he became a pope


it was such an amazing and humbling moment to be able to see the new pope emerging from the curtains. when pope john II was elected, it was 1978 and i was just a baby by then. but now, 27 years later, i got to witness (in TV) pope benedict xvi's election and blessing. it was such an indescribable feeling as my mom, brother and i watched cnn and channel 12 back and forth. i'm glad the new pope has strong doctrinal background. it's definitely needed in this time where people change their beliefs to suit their lifestyle and needs. some people may say otherwise but to pro-lifers like me, i'm more than ecstatic for this new pope. expectations that he be the same with pope john paul II set aside, i'm sure he won't let his people down.


this was his speech (texted to me by vange...) when he was elected pope:
"dear brothers and sisters, after the great pope john paul II, the cardinals have elected me, a humble servant in the vineyard of the Lord. I ask for your contant prayer..."


VIVA IL PAPA!

Ha! If you think this entry is about the glam cindy, well, it's not. i'm talking about the maid cinderella. ;)


to combat the loneliness, one has to get herself busy. i wanted to have my hair cut last Friday to ease away the stress but i didn't make it on time. come saturday, i washed the clothes in the washing machine, of course, and looked after JC. Jc's so hard to look after now! jumping up and down, never wanting to sit still for just a second! hay! big baby, this one is. anyway, after that, my mom,s is and i with JC went to celebrate mass. we ate at mien san. while waiting for the food to come, JC had fun looking at the mirror at smiling to himself... vain ito! and then we went to shopwise for grocery shopping.


sunday morning, we went to the cemetery. it was the chinese's all soul's day last april 4... but since Papa was at the hospital, we came a week late. after, we bought drinks at McDo (apparently needed because we had a baby at home - the logic i do not understand but it's always the same with chinese customs and traditions) and bought Pancit ng taga Malabon since it's JC's 10th month! ;) After, I washed TWO loads of clothes. Got me so tired, that task. After eating, we discovered small roaches at our mugs! that got us into a cleaning frenzy. while somebody was doing the washing of the stuff inside the cupboards - three in total, i was drying the stuff with cloths, while my ate moi was organizing the stuff we wanted to give to charity and those we keep. we ended the task at about 10:30! at least the cupboard will be roach-free na! Eww!


this morning, i received Kai's e-mail. natutuwa ako sa kanya cause isa sya sa mga friends ko na even though i left st peter na, she made effort to meet pa rin. and she always make the effort to write. thanks kai ;) i felt better with ur email.


so it's monday again. another week to conquer. this saturday, reunion na namin sa st peter! 10 years na since. ;) can't wait to see some people, to catch up with people and have fun!

tonight, i felt the pang of loneliness again. but i didn't allow myself to wallow in it. however, i know i have to get it out of my system to move on.


well, tonight is actually another one of those nights that you feel so alone... that you could actually count your real friends with just one hand and they're located in different parts of the world. in my case, it's quite ironic that i lost connection with a lot of friends who are just within the city... yet maintained great connection with friends who are now located in us, iloilo and other countries. i feel sad losing connection to some of the friends who i thought would be friends for life. but it's a sad reality that i have to sink in. we're getting old, perhaps sentimental and when i really see a group of friends laughing, talking, i feel a sense of "I wish I had those kind of friends". it doesn't help that in the office, there's somebody who i am getting close to who has those set of friends. i know sometimes i must be at fault in losing those connection, but i feel a sense of loss that why should i always be the one to reach out? sometimes i need to be reached to as well...


yet in these moments, i know God has a reason for this happening. and maybe it's just hormones. but this is what i feel right now and it felt good being honest to myself. i am a person after all, with real feelings, with real hurts and pains and with faith in God that some day i can look back on this entry and smile.

i leave you with barbra streisand's people...

BARBRA STREISAND "People (From Funny Girl)"

Fanny and Nick steal a private moment
at the party and discover they are both
a little lonely. Fanny sings:

We travel single-oh
Maybe we're lucky, but I don't know--
With them,
Just let one kid fall down
And seven mothers faint.
I guess we're both happy, but maybe--
We ain't.
People--people who need people
Are the luckiest people in the world,
We're children, needing other children
And yet letting our grown-up pride
Hide all the need inside,
Acting more like children
Than children.

Lovers are very special people,
They're the luckiest people
In the world.
With one person, one very special person
A feeling deep in your soul
Says you were half,
Now you're whole.
No more hunger and thirst
But first be a person
Who needs people.
People who need people
Are the luckiest people
In the world!

Nick has to leave the party early because
he's going to Kentucky the next day but
promises to call Fanny when he returns
to New York.

my dad was discharged na yesterday. it was a funny and harrassing day. i had to drop by the office first before going to my dad. but i got into so many stuff in the office that i left ortigas barely 12nn. as soon as i got to the hospital, i helped my mom to go to various doctors, asking for discount on their fees. we also paid our bills so we can be discharged. after, i helped our nurse, ate sally who gave birth to a little baby girl. she was also discharged the same day. funny how events fall into place. when dad was still in the hospital, ate sally couldn't go home to batangas (although her due date is next week pa) because of the incident and funny that she gave birth the next day and then my dad and ate sally got discharged the same day. ;) anyway, i thank God and thank all those who prayed for him. God bless you guys!

when he became a pope


my fave pic of our pope


yesterday, cnn and larry king concluded that a "righteous man" died... for me, it was somebody special who died. i cried that morning seeing his pictures in cnn and in all news network. here you see a man so loved that tens of thousands of people praying and waiting at St. Peter's basilica and perhaps millions worldwide praying for him in their own homes for perhaps, some good news. but at 9:37pm at Rome, the Pope breathed his last and he has gone back to the Father. i am amazed with his life, of the connection with Sr. Faustina and that he left this world during the Divine Mercy Sunday. it was really a sad Sunday morning.


coincidentally, my dad is in the hospital. while cleaning his open treachtomy (i dunno the correct spelling for this), the cotton bud broke in half. when he had his broncoscopy, they saw it was embedded in the right side track of his lungs. today he awaits operation by a thoracic surgeon to hopefully remove the cotton bud by rigid scope or fiber optic means. i pray for his strength for the operation. Please pray with me.