yesterday, i had an unbelievable great... i even can say a perfect day. the day before was such a nightmare. i really was so beat up and frustrated so when i slept that night at about past midnight so technically it was oct 19, i asked God to bless me that i can wake up early the next day and be happy about it. i asked God to give me that grace and even if he doesn't demand any return, i told God that for that day, I'll offer as a sacrifice to the poor souls in purgatory that i won't speak anything bad about the person i had difficulty dealing with. and when i woke up, i woke up feeling better than the day before. i was early at work. and my positive attitude had a glow that my officemates noticed a different aura from me. i told my officemates the deal i made... and at first they were skeptical but i proved them wrong. ;) i was able to go through my day yesterday with so much ease! and come evening, i was to head over to Vangie's bday party at Malate. i was scheduling to leave about 630 but it was almost seven when i got off. but still, i was able to come to malate before 8. it was such a perfect, perfect day! and i have God to thank that for. this proved really true that if u seek it in His name, he will make it happen. ;)

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Twista - Hope Lyrics

(feat. Cee-lo) Lyrics

(Twista talking)
Man, I know we had a lot of tragedies lately.
I just wanna say rest in peace to Aaliyah,
Rest in peace to Left Eye,
Rest in peace to Jam Master Jay,
And everybody lost in the Twin Towers,
And everybody lost period.
All we got is HOPE!!

VERSE 1 (Twista)
I wish the way I was living could stop, serving rocks,
Knowing the cops is hot when I�m on the block, And I
Wish my brother woulda made bail,
So I won�t have to travel 6 hours to see him in jail, And I
Wish that my grandmother wasn�t sick,
Or that we would just come up on some stacks and hit a lick, And
I (I wish)
Wish my homies wouldn�t have to suffer,
When the streets get the upper had on us and we lose a brother,
And I
Wish I could go deep in a zone,
And lift the spirits of the world with the words with in this
song, And I (I wish)
Wish I could teach a could teach a soul to fly,
Take away the pain out cha hands and help you hold them hi, And
I
Wish God never gave the men power
To be able to hurt the people inside the Twin Towers, And I (I
wish)
Wish God woulda turned they hearts righteous,
When they started to take innocent lives and become snipers, But
uh
We will never break, though they devistate, we shall motivate,
And we gotta pray, all we got is faith.
Instead of thinking about who gonna die to day,
The Lord is gonna help you feel better, so you ain�t gotta cry
today.
Sit at the light so long,
And then we gotta move straight forward, cuz we fight so
strong,
So when right go wrong,
Just say a little prayer, get ya money man, life go on!!!
Let�s HOPE!

CHORUS (Cee-Lo)
Cuz I�m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he�ll make a way
I know it ain�t easy but that�s okay.
Let�s be hopeful!

VERSE 2 (Twista)
I wish that you could show some love,
Instead of hatin so much when you see some other people commin
up (I wish)
I wish I could teach the world to sing,
Watch the music and have �em trippin of the joy I bring,
(shiit)
I wish that we could hold hands,
Listen instead of dissin lessons from a grown man, And I (I
wish)
Wish the families that lack, but got love, get some stacks
Brand new shack and a lack that�s on dubs, And I
Wish we could keep achieving wonders,
See the vision of the world through the eyes of Stevie Wonder,
(you feel me) (I wish)
And I hope all the kids eat,
And don�t nobody in my family see six feet, (ya dig)
I hope them mothers stain� strong,
You can make it whether you wit him or your mans gone, And I (I
wish)
Wish I could give every celly some commissary,
And the po po bring the heat on them priest like they did R.
Kelly, And I
Wish that DOC could scream again
And bullets could reverse so Pac and Biggie breath again, (shit)
(I wish)
Then one day they could speak again,
I wish that we only saw good news every time we look at CNN,
I wish that enemies could talk,
And that super homie Christopher Reeves could still walk, (I
wish)
I wish that we could walk a path, stay doin the right thing
Hustle hard so the kids maintain up in the game,
Let�s HOPE

CHORUS (Cee-Lo)
Cuz I�m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he�ll make a way
I know it ain�t easy but that�s okay.
Let�s be hopeful!

VERSE 3 (Twista)
Wish the earth wasn�t so apocalyptic,
I try to spread my message to the world the best way I can give
it,
We can make it always so optimistic,
If you don�t listen gotta live my life the best way I can live
it,
I pray for justice when we go to court,
Wish it was all good so the country wouldn�t have to go to war,
Why can�t we kick it and just get em on,
And in the famous words of Mr. King �Why can�t we all just get
along�,
Or we can find a better way to shop and please, And I
Hope we find a better way to cop a keys, And I
Wish everybody would just stop and freeze,
And ask way are we fulfillin these downfalls and prophecies,
You can be wrong if it�s you doubting,
With the faith of a mustard seed you can move mountains,
And only the heavenly father and ease the hurt,
Just let it go and keep prayin on your knees in church!!
And let�s HOPE

CHORUS (Cee-Lo) X 2
Cuz I�m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he�ll make a way
I know it ain�t easy but that�s okay.
Let�s be hopeful!

(BACKGROUND)
na-na-na-na-na-na-naaaa-naaa
na-na-na-na-na-na-naaaa-naaa
na-na-na-na-na-na
na-na-na-na-na-na
na-na-na-na-na-na-naaaa-naaa
na-na-na-na-na-na-naaaa-naaa
na-na-na-na-na-na-naaaa-naaa
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JC with Great Grandpa... he's so big na! ;) 

This time it was JC's real birthday... September 10, 2005. ;) 

jc about the blow the cake... we designed the function room all by ourselves ;) 

haven't posted jc's pictures lately.;) since i'm on leave today, might as well... ;) this is our family picture taken last September 4 on JC's birthday party 

yesterday, i finally managed to go to the Kerygma Feast after a very long time. and it felt really good. i almost forgot how it felt like and even if i went alone again, it feels rather great to be in the Lord's presence. i love going to these gatherings because i see all the people with their families enjoying the Lord's presence. i somehow envy them because i wish i could bring my family to the K feast but i've always been given an excuse too many. but i know in time with lots of prayers and perseverance, one day they'll attend with me. so yesterday after realizing how much i needed to be in His presence, i went alone. God led me to a seat beside a very much enthusiastic lola and a loving Dad. i know God led me there because it made me smile a lot. Lola was swaying and dancing to the Lord ala Ballroom style and the Dad was so patient and loving to his son that it made my heart melt. We sang praise songs after the Mass and listened to a talk after. Bo was in US/Canada so it was Arun Gogna who preached for us. he's a great preacher and i learned a lot from him yesterday. So much that it made me feel better about my journey with the Lord and how I was struggling deep inside. I also bought a book by Bo... entitled "Your past does not define your future". I finished the Part 1 series already and have discovered a lot of addicitons that were limiting me as a person. I discovered that I had an "approval" syndrome which Bo claims he also has. It felt good to connect that I wasn't alone with this thoughts and syndrome... but i know so much work has to be done. I need to do a lot to recover from this. I also realized that a lot of what I feel right now has something to do with my past hurts... and I look forward to Part 2 to make that change. I know it's not easy and it's not an overnight thing... but in the meantime, i know i am loved by God, who thinks I'm as much beautiful as Charlize Theron, Audrey hepburn and the like, who loves me despite my weaknesses and faults. Also, it helps that a very dear friend of mine, who struggles like me, prays for me. Beng, thank you ha.

i'm tired... physically and emotionally. i wish i could turn into a new leaf in a snap... it isn't my choice to be like this... i wish sometimes people understand that. if i had a choice why would i choose to feel tired, frustrated and disappointed? i would choose to be a person who can just shrug after a frustrating situation and feel better almost immediately!


but i think i know the reason why i'm this way... i left His "presence" and am lost... i know i need to go back to His presence and He would slowly heal me. but it's like i need a push, a jumpstart, a leap of faith... but it's like my feet are cemented to the ground and i just can't.

just wanted to share a song that's it's in my head and heart right now...


Hear Our Prayer

by Hillsong United

album: United Live (2000), Overwhelmed (2002)


Hear our prayer
Spirit, come
How I long for
Your sweet touch.


On my knees
I cry out
Jesus, Savior
Behold your child.


Chorus
Like a deer longing for water
My soul yearns;
Only you can fill my deep hunger
My heart burns
My heart burns.


Oceans deep
Mountains high
O my God, I cannot live without your love;
I cannot live without your love.


(Repeat Chorus)