what happens after christmas? to some it may be memories worth keeping, others memories to let go. to some it meant to open presents and love each and one of them, to others still wishing to receive something. to some the season brings promises, to some it ends. my christmas has been filled with a lot of good things and some bad things. i've realized life is really complex. and come to think of it, as you grow older, it will become more complex.


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a miracle happened to me this christmas. after being so harrassed at work, and coughing all the way down from the pit of my lungs, i was able to sing with the choir on Christmas eve. what's more... my whole family went to mass again for the longest time. i've always wanted to bring them but there has been a lot of excuses. last 2005, they came.


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jovy came... and sadly, left. we just had one afternoon together and a crazy night at tiendesitas. it's so hard to live at the end of the world from them, and getting all sick didn't help either.


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nathan anthony lo, iris and edison's baby boy, arrived on December 30...


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this year, it's already 2006. i felt so dry spiritually last year. i wish this year it will be different. i really miss him. and i want to get closer to him this year. i haven't had time to really reflect what to do with 2006... but one thing for sure, it's that i want to be with him.