i hate to admit it, but getting older do have its ups and downs. the older you get, the more realizations come by. And the past few days before my birthday was an eye opener. i'm not that affected anymore but it did affect me for quite a while. but at the end of the day, i know God has plans... and it's 12:22am now... the day of my bday... and i can feel a bit of sunshine already. thanks Lord...