the past 9 days since my dad was confined in the hospital was a grueling experience. i've handled so many blows already, and i couldn't think why this weakened me after all these years. maybe it's because of his physical appearance. he's become so thin that he's literally all bones. his breathing has really changed and he really does not look good.

i couldn't concentrate on anything else too but the pain i was feeling. it was so good that a lot of friends helped me, texted me, asked me how i was, strengthened me and gave me hope during the past 9 days. i asked God for a sign to help me understand what i was going through.

and you know what? God is so good. after trusting in Him completely, i began to see more blessings and more signs that i was blown away. yesterday, the pain i was feeling in my heart seem non-existent anymore, that even if i see papa hurting, i trust in the Lord's will and i'm lifting everything up to Him.

thank you so so much for everything. for praying with me, for me and for my family, for keeping me sane and keeping up with me. i really appreciate all the things you guys have done for me. please keep praying. papa's not entirely well. but i realy hope sunshine will come through after this long and dragging rain.

by the way... am doing st. philomena's novena. she was introduced by a colleague, then another person who does not know my colleague also mentioned her! so i think this is also a sign for me to ask for her intercession and miracle. :)