maybe because it's turning 30... that big three oh that is making me think about my life and that sounds like a death sentence to some... but i find myself actually waiting for this day to come. it's not that i don't feel old... i really do especially if i'm in st peter, i feel my age a lot because i'm surrounded by everyone's who's a lot younger than me... but it's because i can't believe that i've lived in this world for three decades already! and i guess, though my life is still turning pages and has not made a significant mark yet, i feel i am so blessed by God with friends who care and a family that has its own quirks but loves each other dearly.

maybe it's also because turning 30 soon gives me the confidence that there are more exciting blessings to come and i can't wait to embrace it. :)

i've thought of writing a wish list... but all material things to ask seems so... materialistic and listless... so i thought of what i want to do and accomplish (and not necessarily on that day because it's maundy thursday):

- i want to attend, not organize (haha) a soup kitchen where we can serve soup to the less fortunate
- i want to start my "visit-to-the-hospital-and-cheer-patient-up-through-singing" program that i've been really wanting to do since i had this idea which was already 5-10 years ago????
- i want to write an inspiring song about friendship and God's blessing and try to compile an album of my lyrical compositions and ask omar to put the music behind
- i want to have a quiet dinner with my family and best friends (preferably not together - i am a small crowd kinda girl)
- i want to visit a flower farm in Tagaytay or someone near... and try to grow plants again
- i want my room to be renovated - better chi and feng shui! hahaha
- i want to attend a retreat
- oh of course, i want to have a post-birthday small-group party with char that we talked about a year ago when she comes back from US (jovs, you're invited... :P)

quite hefty but i know can be done... :) not in a day's work... maybe in a month. hahaha.

prayers please :)