This weekend, I spent my days at the hospital while reading Mother Teresa's "Come Be My Light". I finished reading the book last Sunday and felt so refreshed it felt like I just had a retreat. And it really was such an inspiring moment that it made me took notes and made me reflect more of my life and its meaning. I also tried to remember all my promises to God and if I was living up to it.

I've known this book for quite some time already, since Paul introduced me to the book. But for some reason, it was only this time that I asked a friend to buy it for me. And it was timely that I read it while experiencing the "darkness" I was experiencing. Although nothing compared to her "darkness" - it gave light to me, and now I face mine with a BIG smile.

I cannot give a good review of the book - but I really would call reading it a personal retreat. Knowing her pains and struggles, how God works in her and how He showed her His love and then gave her dryness and feeling of abandonment, yet with much conviction, she still loves and would rather die than to refuse Him anything - I believe truly a Saint can only do that. It was also an affirmation for me to read her life - because I didn't know it, but she is my Patron Saint. I realized that now. She was a guiding instrument to me while growing up (I wanted to become a missionary as early as my teen life) and gave me direction to go to Pro-life where I'd meet her again in her quotes about abortion and the culture of life... one of my most memorable is... "The greatest destroyer of peace is abortion because if a mother can kill her own child, what is left for me to kill you, and for you to kill me?" to guiding my choices in life.

This heavy cross I bear suddenly felt light compared to the sacrifices Mother Teresa experienced, and I cannot help but be grateful that even though this is hard times for me and my family, I know God will never leave us and that this sufferings only could me give joy right now because I am also experiencing "His Passion" and I offer it to satiate his thirst for souls.

(Thank you to everyone who continues to pray for me, and I ask for more prayers again as this battle is far from over.)