sorry, this isn't our best picture jeff, but i wanted to blog about you since it's your 30th birthday!

jeff...

... you were sunshine when it stormed, made me laugh and cry so hard i'd forget all about the pain.

... you led me to light when i was in darkness - many time it happened, and always you were there. you also helped me find God... and finding God was indeed the best thing that happened to me.

... you defined dreams to reality, as you slowly made your dreams realized and this in turn has become one of my inspirations in life.

... you're original and you're classic and i'll always be grateful for our friendship.

thanks for never changing and for being there! love you jeff!

happy happy birthday!

It's been weeks since Papa went back to the Lord.

How are we coping? How am I coping?

I wish I could say I'm okay. But honestly, there is a void. I know that he's in a much better place now. It's always hard to be the one who's left behind.

I'm throwing myself to work. But I miss Papa. I miss the "normalcy" of having him at home. That's selfish, I know, but I just miss hugging him and being with him.

I know it's not the time to focus on me. Should focus on mama first. and how she is doing. And she's just like me, i guess. Outside, i look okay. but deep down, it's still painful. and lonely.

But I know God is allowing us to feel this so we can depend on Him for strength. There are a lot of people who experienced much, much tougher times. But I should just trust in Him. He has a lot of plans for my family. I know that deep down.

But in the mean time, it's hard. And no matter how much we prepared, you really never know how to deal with it until you go through it.